There is a difference between being a woman and wanting to be a woman.
There are cisgender males who are women. We call them "transsexuals." Then there are cisgender males who want to be women. They are wannabes and we call them "crossdressers."
I believe I am a woman. All signs point in that direction, but there is always a little doubt in my mind.
I am naturally "feminine," that is, my speech, mannerisms, personality and psyche match up with society's expectations for the female gender. (However, when I present as male, some people misinterpret my femininity and think I am gay.)
And when I say "naturally feminine," I mean that I am not faking it. I am not purposely acting feminine. This is me and me is she.
So why is there any doubt in my mind?
I am attracted to the ultra femme side of appearing female. I am a fashionista and I want to look gorgeous. So when I present as a woman, there is no doubt that my presentation is ultra feminine. I dress to impress that I am a female.
Yes, there are plenty of females who wear jeans and tees, but that's not me. Jeans and tees are what I wear when I dress to impress that I am a guy not a gal.
Does my attraction to appearing ultra femme make me less of a woman and more of a guy who wants to be a woman?
Maybe, maybe not.
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| Wearing Ann Taylor |
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| Two lads, circa 1910. |